The Great Experiment of Self — Overcoming Middle-Aged Mediocracy

In 2020 I found myself hovered in a crescendo of middle aged mediocracy. I was whittled into a mombie with a late-night wine habit to still my daytime anxiety and the lack of magnificence in my life. I would like COVID to take the credit for the state that I found myself in but in all actuality I think we were all on the train to mediocracy well before COVID surfaced.

I turned 40 in 2020. It is really just a number but it felt like something interesting should happen the day I turned 40. I hoped to rise like a Phoenix from the ashes of the shit I swam through in my 30s. However, much to my demise it was just another day. I made up stories of self acceptance and I looked behind me at all the baggage I had unloaded in the last decade of my life.

In my 30s I discovered truths about myself that had been buried for decades. I stopped running away from my faults; I stood my ground and looked myself in the eye embracing my imperfections. Once I started to embrace my imperfections I was able to shapeshift them into quirks and make accommodations but I know that I have only just begun.

I now realize that on this journey of life unless I want to walk around naked and exposed in this world I will always need to carry some baggage. Now that I see that, I can decide how much I carry with me into the gloriousness that is my future. But even more important, I realized that the deep self is gloriously intelligent and intuitive. We can’t spout self love and applaud companies that are finally using plus-size models in their marketing when we still compare ourselves to others or sub consciously punish ourselves for all our wrongdoings (which, newsflash… their will always be many!)

We can weigh ourselves down with self doubt, bad habits, and self destructive patterns or we can choose to travel lighter. It means that we will have to leave some things behind that have become a deep part of who we are.

If I am being honest I don’t know exactly how we do that.

This leads me to “The Great Experiment.” It is where we bundle up everything we have learned and accumulated in this shit show and dismantle it to form a new existence. It requires being bold, honest, raw, and true. It means trying new supplements, routines, exercises, and cobbling together an existence that feels inspiring and full of beauty because life is too damn short for anything less.

Join me on this journey to overcome middle-aged mediocracy.
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